Just a Thoughtful Notion.

So I don't really have anything important to talk about or say today. But I figured writing would soothe me a little bit after that essay I just tried to write. Key word: tried.

My alarm went off at 10:00 am today, and I had gone to bed at around 3 or 4 am. Yet, surprisingly, I felt awake. I knew I had to write my essay... but I figured what the hell. I could sleep in another hour so that I wouldn't be so tired for work that night.

Well my second alarm went off at 11:00 am. I was so exhausted. What the hell. Another hour would help.

I woke up at 12:00 am, exhausted as ever. How you can sleep more and be more tired never ceases to amaze me. I guess I just need to figure out the perfect sleep pattern so I can wake up, for once in my life, refreshed!

I did my makeup (again, inspired by Jangsara- awe I love her), then headed to work on a bus. Unfortunately, bus routes never work out for me, so I ended up getting there an hour ahead of time and read my book, "All My Friends are Going to Be Strangers" by Larry McMurtry.

I'm about half way through it, and its really really good. But its definately not for everybody. Its very risque, and its main motifs are sex and drugs. If you can get past that, I'd say its a must read. Its another book my teacher recommended to me and, while most wouldn't consider it classical literature or mind opening material, I sure think its going to help me out. Its all about this college kid who has been an honors student all his life, and was even given the key to the library at his college. He struggles with love, college, friends, money, career, etc, and I think it has a little bit of everything so that nearly everyone can relate (or at least I can). I can see myself in this guy's shoes, making all the mistakes that he's making. Hopefully this can shed some light for me!

A paradox came upon me today. This girl and two guys (all teens) came in today. One of the guys was clearly in a relationship with her. She was the stereotypical blonde type- disgusting. It occurred to me that most girls take on that persona in order to attract men because, if they were to actually appear smart or anything near an individual it would take longer for men to notice them. I think they actually believe men prefer women to be like that. But I don't believe it. I think men generally "go for" that type because they know they're an easy lay. So while women think they can get quality men through that act, they're just using the wrong bait.

I don't know. A random rambling I suppose.